Each day I wonder what is in store for me. I have a lot of time on my hands and I am looking at myself through a different lens. At times I do not like what I see or what I have become. I am not the same. I have set out to rediscovery myself and I have to say it is the hardest thing I have had to do. After years of taking things for granted, like waking up and going to work, I am thankful for just being.
I am having to make adjustments to living, surviving, and reviving. I am trying to learn to rediscover myself. I am not perfect. I have made mistakes. But, who am I? I visualize in my mind what I remember about my childhood, my younger years, my relationships with others, my marriage, my children, my jobs, my divorce, and the choices I have made. It seems to me the picture is not complete. It reminds me of a giant jigsaw puzzle with all the pieces scattered about all over the place.
Now each day I am working on connecting all the pieces together. It is a slow meticulous process that is sure to show a part of me I did not realize I had. I am also learning to love myself, but I have to say there are parts of me I do not like. This has been and will be an enlightening experience as this goes forward.